Thursday, June 28, 2012

Let's Be Real

Here I am, staring at the computer screen with so much to tell you guys, and yet I can't. 
I can't because there is someone reading my blog that shouldn't be. 
I hate that because I feel like I can't be real all the time in fear that something will get used against me.

What I can say is that this year has been a transition phase for me.
I didn't realize that until I read Devan's blog last week and she described herself being in a similar situation. Something just clicked and I suddenly felt ok about everything that's happened this year. It all started to make sense. 

getting out of a toxic relationship and thinking I'd never get over it
- I've finally started to realize my own self-worth. 
The horrible things that were put into my head day in and day out are no longer there. 
I've become stronger because of it and have promised myself that I'll never let another guy treat me that way.

grandpapa passing on my 25th birthday - something that was obviously traumatizing 
moving back home for a bit until I figure out said plans that I can't discuss yet ;) 

I have a good feeling about life lately and I believe that the transition part of it is almost over. Good things are coming my way and I couldn't be more excited about it! I promise as soon as I can I will give you the deets :) So as always, thanks for all of your support and love. It means so much to me :)

I'd apologize for the seriousness of the post but I shouldn't have to apologize for what I put on my blog. I just feel like I need to be as real as I can until the situation with this person isn't a situation anymore. 

That being said, let's move onto some lighter things ehhh?

I'm sure by now most everyone has heard the song Payphone.
But have you heard other songs from Maroon 5's new album Overexposed?
Cause you should go listen to Love Somebody, Lucky Strike, and The Man Who Never Lied asap.
SO good.

Also, I know I'm not the only girl who can't wait to see Magic Mike tomorrow.
let me just wipe the drool off my desk.

Now, if only I could find a guy in real life that looks like one of them, preferably Channing Tatum.

Alright, I think I've talked y'alls ears off today so I'll leave you with this.

happy thursday!


Lindsey said...

Love this post! I had a very similar situation with a toxic relationship and I'm pretty sure he reads my blog to this day. I just eff them and let's live our lives.

And um, I cannot wait for MM! My tickets are purchased and I will be attending the 10:20 p.m. showing on Friday! hollaaaaa!

Bethany Scruggs said...

...that's all.

Janna Renee said...

I love you!!! You will get it all figured out- I have total faith :) Have a good day, twin!

tiff@thecoffeehouse said...

gah. I love this post! and you are so so SO right ... you should not have to worry (or apologize) for anything on your blog. and I needed to hear this so bad ... I was so worried about writing a little bit about my parents' divorce the other day. I lost a lot of sleep over it. and a few readers. but ... again, you are right. :) so glad you are having a good feeling about life lately!

Hannah said...

Sounds like this has been a huge transition for you but it also sounds like great things are on the horizon! Transitions are always hard... whether it's moving past a difficult relationship, starting a new job, or moving out on your own but in the end everything works out! You are so positive and that will carry you through all of this! Good luck with everything xoxo

Samantha said...

Sorry to hear you're having a hard time with things right now. Love the quote you posted, it's so true and try to remember that :)

Magic Mike is going to be phenom!!!!! Can't wait to see it!!!!!!!!!!

Turtles and Pearls said...

The first few lines of this post are so true for me, too. I'm working on not letting my "reader" bother me, but it is hard. It makes me feel better to know I'm not alone!! Love that you can look toward the future with excitement, and I hope it is full of wonderful things for you.

Katrin said...

I am sorry that you had such a hard time. But you are such a wonderful person and you deserve the best! I am glad that the transition time is almost over and I wish you all the best, dear!

Sarah Beth said...

Love this post. I agree with you that you shouldn't apologize for anything you put on your blog. Ever. That's what makes it yours! Stay strong girl, great things are ahead!

PS. Magic Mike is the greatest thing to ever happen to movies. The End.

the girl in the red shoes said...

You totally need to go see Magic Mike this weekend! Sending you a big fat hug girly!

Aimee L said...

Sooo excited for all the changes coming your way, and here's hoping your blog-stalker stops stalking you soon {or that things come together and it won't matter whether they stalk or not}!! Good luck, absolutely do have great things coming your way :)

Casey @ Classic with a Pop said...

So true! I think it was Eleanor Roosevelt who once said, do what you feel in your heart to be right, for you will be criticized for it anyway.

Ashley said...

dont apologize for the seriousness of your post - this is your heart and i love that you shared it! and now i know that we have something to discuss over wine ;) i have a very similar story!! i was in a 7-year relationship that was very verbally abusive and just not healthy towards the end. no bueno!! but you do come out stronger and more aware.

and sisters, sister-in-laws and baby mama of said 7-year relationship all read my blog so i know you what you mean about the readers. i dont know who yours is, but its YOUR blog. i hate that you feel you can't share ;(

and yeahhh girl - i'm going to see MM next week! have to support the boyfriend ;) haha

Tabitha Mahoney said...

You're wonderful, and I'm so happy to hear that you realized how fab you are, sometimes relationships are toxic and you have no clue until its over. You deserve the world and the right guy will give it to you!


Anonymous said...

I remember we touched on this subject back in January- I'm glad to see were both transitioning out of that bad time. Onward and upward girl! And I think you should keep it real on here- no matter if you think this certain reader is reading or not- you just do you! <3

Kelly { MessyDirtyHair } said...

ive been there too girl, in highschool. i know exactly how you felt & are feeling. its tough i know. stay strong, youre a beautiful women inside & out!


Anonymous said...

You're beautiful and have come a long way since we met. We both have. Everything is looking up for you and you deserve nothing but! Love you!

Devan said...

Keep your head up girl :) I'm glad that things are looking up and I can't wait to hear the exciting news.

Anonymous said...

So happy for you catching your stride! I feel like we all fall into a bit of a funk sometimes with relationships/jobs/life that we aren't happy with and need to re-route..good things to come!!

The Pink Growl said...

Hugs to you friend! You are beautiful and you definitely are making the right choices in your life. Keep the faith and don't doubt yourself for a minute! :)

Alicia @ To Columbus and Beyond! said...

1. I LOVE Maroon 5 - need get on spotify ASAP.
2. I am so with you on relationships/transition. I've been in crap before that I thought I'm never going to get over or out of but, alas you always do. Transitions are exciting and scary at the same time.

And I'm sorry about your grandfather :( I haven't lost grandparents yet and am just TERRIFIED of the day it comes.